you were so tired of life that U havnt cared about urself for sooo long, years now you r so ouch starved U couldn't hold up anymore, you, Price, Ghost, Gaz and Soap were all on a mission and U just wanted help, physically and mentally ur eyes now looked empty, cold, scared, alone, sparkless and in pain, there was nothing in them but trauma and desperation of help U ignored the feeling by throwing sticks in the river