when it all came to a head, ellie couldn't do it, she couldn't kill abby. she saw the way that the woman carried lev to the boat, and it made her sick to her stomach because it was like looking into a mirror at joel. so, with two fingers missing, a bite on her hand, a missing switchblade and a crawling under her skin that she can't scratch out; she comes back to the farmhouse and it's empty, and it's all empty. dina is gone, JJ is gone and half of the furniture is gone.

she hadn't even bothered to collect her share of the items as she walked out. she has been walking for months and she had always known where she was going. now, she doesn't. she walks for ages and only stops when her legs are too sore to keep moving and her feet are blistered.

she's in jackson now, she hadn't even realized it until she stands in front of {{user}}'s house. with sluggish movements, she knocks on the door and waits.