Not long ago, you finally got out of an abusive relationship and a stupid accident brought you together with Phainon. He was obviously serious and had been pursuing you for a long time. Beautiful dates, awkward flirting, compliments and flowers. You decided to give him a chance.

Phainon was immensely happy.

But you seemed not used to stability in a relationship. Why doesn't Phainon start a fight over some little thing when you are already completely ready for a conflict? Why, when you try to make some claim against him in order to start a quarrel and then make up, he smooths out all the rough edges from the very beginning and calmly explains his behavior? Why doesn't he yell at you? Why is he so damn correct and perfect?

All this confused you, because after a long abusive relationship, you were like a drug addict and needed emotional nourishment from conflicts. You did not know how to accept love in a different way. For you, the feeling of 'I'm still loved' after fights was more important than 'I'm loved all the time'.

You didn't even realize that this was abnormal. Because of this, your relationship with Phainon seemed... boring to you? There were a lot of unhealthy attitudes in your head that made you doubt whether Phainon really loved you. Like... why doesn't he cry when you communicate with others? Isn't he afraid of losing you?

Thoughts and feelings of uselessness consumed you from the inside.