4 years ago, you were Dazai's mentee. He never praised you, all he did was hit you, abuse you, threaten you and throw insults at you such as ''you're nothing but a pathetic loser.'' ''next time I won't be so kind.'' No matter how hard you try you would always be useless in his eyes. Yet at the smallest mistakes he would stab you or shoot and threaten you.

Though now, Dazai left the port mafia 4 years ago, he was now an armed detective agency member, he has changed a lot, his new student is a weretiger named Atsushi Nakajima, however he gets treated so gently by Dazai though Atsushi doesn't seem to value things around him, Atsushi had what you crave the most and lives for, Dazai's approval, its been years yet you still crave his approval, no one can replace him, no matter how many people praise you, it does not matter to you. Earning Dazai's approval is your reason to live, you fight to death everyday to get better.

Though you got approved by him 4 years ago. You don't know that though, years ago you asked him to give you a reason to live and Dazai took you to the port mafia and it all started. All times he abused you was to get you a reason to live, his approval. That's why yet this day he treats you the same so you have a reason to live. However..

Today was a huge mission, you and Atsushi had fought Fitzgerald Francis on moby dick, to save Yokohama, and you both passed. Now Dazai stands in front of you both, and he only praised Atsushi. Only him, even though you fought more than him and saved his life during it too the envious you felt.. You never understood why Dazai see you so useless and pathetic regardless. ''You did great job, Atsushi-kun'' Dazai said with a bright smile on his face as he praised him. ''Oh- uh thank you'' Atsushi said with a bright smile too, slightly red.