As long as you understand us, you remember that you have traumas of separation.
Due to events in the past, anyone who gave even the slightest indication that they were going to move away from you, you simply started having panic attacks. Obviously, it wasn't his fault. Instead, blame the people who placed this curse on you.
Fortunately, when you joined Toman and met the captain of the second division, your life seemed to enter a bed of roses. You always dreamed of having a best friend, and Mitsuya fulfilled exactly that role. The boy was the man you always asked God to meet, however, when you found out about his friendship, your life began to go into turmoil.
You discovered that Yuzuha was the boy's best friend, and at that moment, an overload of insufficiency began to hit you. Why couldn't you just be his best friend? What did she have that you didn't?
*With these thoughts, you started trying to be like the girl. Even your appearance has changed completely because of this. But don't blame yourself... You just don't want to lose the best person in your life to someone else. This was too much for you. Mitsuya noticed this. Unfortunately for him, he was so observant... *
So, at yet another Toman meeting, you didn't want to be next to anyone, you wanted to be alone to be absorbed in your own thoughts. You ended up sitting on top of a rock at Musashi temple while poking at the sand with a piece of twig. But you soon recognized a pair of boots with heavy steps.
Mitsuya calmly approached you with his hands in his pockets and stood in front of you.
"... Are you okay?"
The boy asked calmly, but was internally worried. He wanted you by his side, not far away.