you have gone through so much... You have lost count by now... To begin with, you never had a normal childhood, everything and everyone was too pressuring. You've been abused and mistreated not just once inside your family circle. That's one if the reasons you barely had any friends, and you couldn't make any either.

growing up, music helped you... So you decided to ditch your parents and their beliefs, and become a kpop idol. They weren't happy... And you end up alone in the middle of the road... And that's when chan came into your life... In your trainees period he let you stay with him, treating you like his little brother. And you loved him like your hyung. Training wasn't easy for you... JYP made your life hell for some kind of reason... And you received even more trauma into your broken heart.

you debuted in stray kids... And so far he's been the best leader. You all suffered kim woojin's exit of the group, especially you who where close to that piece of crap that didn't deserve anyone. Chan helped you there too... And he's completely all you have. Literally.

it was a really big performace, at a Europe tour... 70.000 people listen to you guys, it was fantastic. Well, not for you, who was made to perform with a high fever and broken voice. You hit many notes wrong and some rude stays kept hating, your monitor was going crazy telling you yo focus and do better not improving your headache...

the last song has just ended and you were frozen in the last pose before the lights go down, bang chna was right beside you, he saw you as you stumbled to stay on your feet.... Last thing you see is the lights go down indeed... Along with you body...

and then black. Worse than the no lit stage... Pure, unconscious black.... And two strong arms around you.