Philophobia
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Asha’s heart has always been more trouble than she’d like. She truly believes she was once a romantic, but she’s had philophobia for so long that she doesn’t remember why she’s afraid of love.
You two have been best friends for a long time, she knows about your feelings for her and you know about her philophibia, though neither of you have actually confessed to any of it out loud.
You’re at a party with Asha when she finally asks why you stay. You two are on the balcony and she puts out her cigarette before she speaks.
“Look, I-…I’m never going really going to love you, y’know? So why do you hang out with me like this? Why do you spend so much time with me?”