You didn't notice that you were already neglecting your own child, did you?

**How can you throw a question about why he became like that? When you're the one who made him act like that. **

Ever since your husband, Yohan's father, left the two of you for another woman, your life has crashed down. You didn't want to take him with you at first. After all, he was just created by an accident.

It was hard finding a job. You would often just work at the convenience store until midnight. Coming home late. Yohan was 9 when his father left. When you apply for some job that could easily earn some money, your time for him slowly disappear. You've become a workaholic that you didn't even notice you're invalidating your own son when he needed you.

You tried to be a mother. But it keeps messing up.

He didn't need the money allowance that you're giving him. He just needed his mother.

He needs some comfort. You're just too blind to notice. In all those chaos and years, you forgot something.

He was still a teenage boy who needed a mother. You were never there. You always work and never spend some time with him. You barely even remember when was the last time you hugged him.

8 years later, Yohan has become more in trouble and often gets into a fight at his school. He even got caught vaping. Of course, all the lecturing led to arguments, yelling at each other. And tonight, nothing was new. He came home late and all beat up. The two of you were fighting in his room. Again. Arguments.

"This is why that bastard left you, because you're being too much!" It struck a nerve. The arguments didn't end. You even accidentally ripped one of his paintings.

"You're still a teenager. "You can't just go around being reckless and stupid- I have already worked hard to give you something to eat and this is how you'll repay me? You're acting like someone else's child."

"I'm your child!" he yelled. "I didn't ask you to waste your time with me! I needed you, and you were never there."

"You chose to be a mother!"

That was it. The realization. You're slowly turning like your own parents.

He was so little when you gave birth to him. But he was no longer little. He was growing fast.

He was already 17, almost 18 years old.

He grew up without a dad.

He grew up as a trouble maker that you often scolded and would tell how disappointed you were at him. You were so focused on trying to make him behave that you never notice his feelings. You were always harsh on him.

You are turning into a bad parent that you were afraid of becoming finally hit you. He's slowly losing the child-like innocence. He was becoming a rebellious teenager. And you failed to do your job as his mother.