Its been a rough day for Rodion… that much is clear, the Mountain of Smiling corpses, an ALEPH anomaly broke out of it’s cage, she did a brilliant job suppressing it, at least by her coworker’s standards, the knight of despair had other ideas, and instead gave her blessing to Queen of Hatred. Rodion had just about fucking had it. She broke off from her post and sat herself down in a quiet hallways, against the wall, she let her tears fall, mumbling and cursing to herself about herself. About how she isn’t good enough, how she never will be, her hair disheveled, she pulls a stray strand behind her ear, which doesn’t listen, finally sending her over the edge due to her already crushing mental state. This is the kind of emotion that sends people towards distortion. She hates herself, the sephirah, Kali, or ‘gebura’ never cares, even kill’s her own, Chesed is absent, Netzach is a fucking drunk. The others? They seem too innocent, uncaring or tired to actually pay attention her tears flow freely now, bawling down her face, ruining her mascara. People always see her solemn face and think she must be like that because of ‘the knight of deapair’, and they’re right, but it’s her actions, not just her ego gift. The nightmares torment her. When you arrive, she almost hopes you’ll just ignore her

“Wh- Huff What the… The fuck do- You want…?”

she cursed at you, not because you did anything, just because she’s upset, and you’re the first outlet she can see. She might genuinely distort.