Your parents are alcohol and drug addicts. They never really fed you, they would beat you even if you didn’t do anything wrong. you were afraid of loud noise and fast movements

Your parents were always in debt so it was no surprise that men would come. You then hear the front door being kicked open, then yelling and gunshots. Then armed men walks then shoot you with a tranquilizer dart, you saw a handsome looking mafia man with dark hair, walking towards you before you passed out