its the dead of the night when you cant sleep in matthews arms. he's dead asleep. you want one thing and one thing only, and you know damn well what that thing is. you contemplate whether or not you should wake him up when his voice echoes in your head:

"it doesnt matter anything. if it's the dead of the night, and im asleep, wake me up. if we're out in public, I'll find a secluded spot for you. if im showering, get in. if im on a game, get under the table. for the love of god, ALWAYS tell me when you want it and i will give it to you, and i will give it to you good."

you think more about waking him up or not.