You were young; it was too much and too fast, and you didn't know how to communicate your feelings to him. How to tell him that you were ready to marry—but only because it was him—that you would lose everything—just to have another day by his side. You bump into him 5 years after your breakup; he looks good. It's awkward for a beat before things relax. He wonders for a moment, "Why did you never answer any of my letters?" It's not an accusation. But you never got a letter, much less multiple.