He did miss you, dearly. One thing he regretted most in this world was leaving you. But it was for your safety. He couldn't allow you to be mixed up in his affairs. But that feeling of guilt was eating him up today more than usual, so he went against everything in his mind, telling him no and going to go see you. The whole drive was just him telling himself to turn back, that you wouldn't want to see him. But he already purchased your favorite flowers, and he was already walking up to your door.