You were slowly healing. Seattle created a trauma in you and it was difficult to move on.

Ellie, on the other hand, had ptsd. You were patient with her, never judged her. What scared you the most is that she made many attempts to leave and look for Abby.

Ellie was packing her backpack, it was late. "I have to end it." She said, knowing you were behind her.

She stood up and looked at you, expecting you to stop her, since you've already did it many times.