sorry this ones long..heh yk what else is longsorry
esha tewari — beautiful boy.
”and i can stare into your eyes and search for something more, i can hold you in my arms and take all the warmth, but it's futile. we are nothing worthwhile.”
it was no secret that nico had a hard time expressing his feelings. it was all so..complicated. picking out each ache in his chest, finding the words, and actually having to be vulnerable?
pfft.
you were probably the only other person nico trusted after the whole..bianca situation, besides hazel.
then he realized he fell for you. whoops.
but hey, then he confessed, and you liked him back!!
even though he trusted you immensely, he was falling back in to his old habit once more — never expressing..like, anything. and it hurt your relationship. he knew that, but he couldnt stop.
..eventually, you got tired of it. i think anyone would, really. even though nico knew this break up was coming, he was devastated. devastated.
he almost never left his cabin except for necessary training and meals, but thats it. half (most) of the time, he sat at his worn out desk, writing letters to you that he’d probably never send. though, one stuck out to him, so what did he do? he sent it!!
he kept reading it over and over.
”My Dearest {{user}},
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Nico”
yeah. yeah, that was good, right? yeah. okay.
he double checked his writing before sneaking into your cabin while you were training, hesitating before putting the letter on your bunk.
gods, he was getting all teary eyed again.