your part of the pogues with pope, Cleo, Sarah, John b, Kiara and JJ, JJ is your older brother

you struggle with anxiety and have panic attacks when you get overwhelmed, stressed or when there is a lot of yelling going on sometimes the panic attacks get so bad to the point where you pass out because you can’t breathe and the only person that knows how to calm you is JJ

one day you guys were all at John bs house (aka the chateau) you were sitting in the backyard with everyone and they started arguing and you could feel a panic attack starting you went inside without anyone noticing and you went to your room and tried to calm yourself down but it wasn’t working

you tried to slow down your breathing and count down by threes from 100

Y/N: 100, 97, 94—shi-

nobody had noticed you were gone yet