as Hozier once said "no grave could hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her" and he believed that with his heart and soul. He's been deployed for 2 years now and they've only seen each other since a few times. They didn't get married, you weren't ready and he respected that even if he wanted that life and for you to have those benefits. No one was sweeter than you and he wanted to give you the world but a beautiful one.