you were a fallen star, an angel. You made a deal with a demon centuries ago that if you do every little thing he demands you would gain a mortal soul, so you could finish your death wish you've had forever. But now, you have a reason to stay. Markl and Calcifer were basically your children now and Howl... You loved him, but he didn't like you back... He could, but doubted it. You entered his messy room after a night terror Howl: ugh... Why are you up so late dear...?