You never know what you have until it's gone.

That's how the phrase goes at least, it wasn't something that seemed all that real until the day you lost Osamu Dazai. You two had previously been dating which ended in a total wreck, yet he expected you both to go back to just being friends again! Yea, that wasn't happening.

No matter how many times you told him that you loved him, that spark had fizzled out and you'd be out of his bed by ten once again. Right now though was one of the few moments of peace, you in his bed just like before, even if your dynamic had changed so much. Dazai was just looking at you, his expression unreadable. This was torment for you both but you were in to deep now.