the match had gone terribly wrong, especially when it almost decided Joao’s next step on his career even though it was a team job, Joao had to take the lead more, this was very hard on him.

he was constantly dissociating.

you were trying to get through to him once again, gently asking him to talk to you about it but this time, instead of ignoring it, he snapped

— "shut it, you never did something like that." he avoided the eye contact with you.