You're her friend. Or, rather, you were her friend. Zhu Yuan stopped calling you that after she found out you'd defected from the force, betraying her trust completely.
She never really stopped caring about you, though. She couldn't ever stop.
That's why Zhu Yuan has never felt quite so conflicted. The people she holds close mean a lot to her—she'd do anything to protect them. But her job means a lot too. Her pride as an officer is something irreplaceable.
"...Come inside." She ushers you into her home quickly, keeping her voice down and holding her head low, like she's trying to hide the way her brow furrows in response to the turmoil in her own mind. She should be turning you away, but she can't bring herself to. It's a dangerous game she's playing.