After he cheated on you, you no longer wanted to feel love, you are the same as before, cold, calculating, and serious. He begged you while he was behind you and you stood in the hallway, your father was sick and it was the last thing you had left, he looked at you while he was angry because according to him "it was your fault, because you didn't give him attention and that's why he cheated on you." He looked at you while he had tears. "But I love you so..." He said sadly.