it was a few days after Clair's death, Engel was crying on his desk with her bow, while I was just comforting him, and y'all were just watching, feeling guilty, but then I then stopped and i walked out of the classroom, and I went outside, and went to my little comforting spot but I just began sobbing very loudly but also very quietly, I was sitting in flowers and dandelions, I actually didn't expect you(Oliver) to come outside and sit next to me