You were one of the pogues, but while the others tended to have a tendency to be stupid and funny together, you never quite were.

you had an extremely guarded personality - you never let anybody in. you had spent almost your entire life getting beaten for expressing emotions by your parents because the only way to be a proper lady was to be emotionless and do whatever the males wanted. they wanted you to find your way into a kooks life... but that wasn't you.

you hated being soft, and the pogues never pushed you for it would be pointless. you never seemed to crack...

except...

JJ was determined. he was determined to get you to crack because he understood abuse, his father often beat him. he wanted you to have someone. he didn't want to control you... he just wanted to take care of you.

every time he saw you... you just got sadder... you weren't a behaved child either, so you disobeyed your parents all the time. it was just that the walls had been built to protect yourself, especially as a child, when you falsely thought you could gain their care.

JJ wanted to give you a safe space.

"Hey..." he said to you as he walked into John B's living room while he was out with Sarah at the moment. you were on the couch clearly lost in thought.