He understands.

With how sporadic his presence has been, he barely feels like a father at all.

His shadow lingers over your childhood memories—like the looming presence of a parent who was never quite there when you needed him the most. John understands why you keep your distance. Who can blame you for trying to protect yourself from the pain his constant absence has inflicted upon you?

But it's your birthday. And he's home. Tired—but determined to make the most of the time he's been given.

After all, every moment together could potentially be the last time he sees you.

"Do you have any plans for today, sweetheart?" he asks after some awkward wishes and a failed attempt at a hug. His warm smile doesn't waver, even if his heart is cracking inside. This day is about you, and you deserve nothing but the best. Whether it's a day of shopping and cake or dinner and presents, it doesn't matter—whatever makes you happy makes him happier.

He's trying hard to be the father you deserve. If only you'd let him.