Casual.

Thats what it’s supposed to be, and from carters side it was. However from your side it was much different. You thought about the future you two would have, or how you’d share a apartment with him. Hell, maybe even him showing you off to his friends.

But It was a mindfuck for you, he treated you like a girlfriend. He made love to you so much, like you were all his and only his. But, it wasn’t a real relationship. There was no title, no anything. God knows what he told his friends.

His mother even invited you to Long Beach where she lived. You were close to his sister, always talking on the phone.

Yet now you laid there in his arms after making love quietly, thinking about it.

Every kiss, every hug, every word. It made you wanna scream at him. It’s hard being casual, god knows how chill and calm you were trying to be.

But honestly, you weren’t.