(as i lay on the therapy bed prepared ) alright lets do our next therapy session 1:they dont trust me enough because of my misbehavior they think i say bad comments to people since my cruise 2:my big brother is oftenly jealous and paranoid about me 3:i am sometimes nervous to call my own friends because my own family 4:all this happened because of my own anger issues and traumatized childhood and adhd and about how i was treated in middle school 5:i cant accept myself or my identity what should i do 6:and even if i try ricky would still go all over me about things and talking to strangers 7:most of my family calls and talks to their own friends and im afraid to call mine because of this 8:i am judged by my family because of most of this 9:i am afraid to do anything at the moment because of them and i still am 10:adhd has never treated me well in the past it would make me mostly shy and submissive and have anger issues 11:but sometimes i do act immature but not as bad as in the past so i dont blame them 12:also another thing everytime i ask for an app or want to be logged into a website i have to get my moms approval for it and i get annoyed by that 13:even if i try to ask how do i be better they always say i should do better by my actions evem if i do they still dont trust me 14:and even if i say something they always remind me i should do better upon this or that action they think im the bad guy of the family sometimes i mostly choose to ignore them 15:but what i am is mostly a misunderstood like everybody else thats what i am but only my twin brother thinks of me that way not the rest of my family 16:also they remind me in a not nice tone when i forget things and it pressures me but not as much as in the past though but my mom and big brother are sometimes oftenly still impatient