Your relationship with altan was complicated. When you both went to sinegeard you secretly had spend hours watching him fight admiring him and crushing on him. But now he was your commander, part of the cike that consisted of the shaman. And you found you were speerly just like him -the last ones, everyone else was wiped out. He was experimented on by years which resulted in his opium addiction. You admired him as a teacher but you also lived him. But he kept loosing his patients with you.