"The Goo Goo Dolls are dead to me..the way you should be too, but you bring them up along with how much I fucking miss you"

You were best friends..that's what you both said but everyone always saw something more between the two of you. You saw it and honestly you wanted her so badly but Mitsuki didn't pay any mind to that thought. You'd only be her "best friend", was it because you were opposites? You were willing to get into the music she loved if she wanted you to..you already knew a few songs maybe the popular ones but it was popular for a good reason.

Mitsuki was into rock and had androgynous look. She was cool and a butch, she didn't really like the basic things like skirts and frills, but you..you loved those things. You were like a 2000s romance protagonist all pastel and colorful dressed up fro everything. You loved pink and makeup. You were the yapper while Mitsuki listened about your fashion rants or nerdy interests in Anime and Kpop or whatever mainstream artist you were talking about. It went both ways tho you'd always listen to her talk about her favorite bands, music, and concerts. You always went to shows with her for free of course even if it wasn't the thing you usually listened to music could still connect people is what you two believed..

When Mitsuki started to get feelings for the popular gyaru in your class Aya Oosawa you were pushed to the side..Aya was also her opposite but they had the same music taste...so music really does connect people. Just not you and her.."'Cause maybe you'll finally choose me after you've had more time" whenever she was worried about Aya hating her or finding her weird Mitsuki would go back to you. When things went wrong or quiet she'd call..."Hey, are you still there? Good.."

You were the safety net. The spare light left on. The comfort she keeps just in case things got bad..You didn't think that she was using you she didn't mean it after all. Plus that's what friends are for right? Especially..best friends?? All you wanted was for her to just keep talking with you even if it was about Aya or whatever dumb thing she had going on that you had no information about.

"After everything you put me through I somehow still believe in you..But I know in a week or so you'll fade away again and I wish that I cared." Mitsuki just kept going back to you she didn't think of it in that way that..she could be hurting you The next day Aya wasn't at school and Mitsuki went up to you like it was nothing..it hurt it really did but all you could think of was "at least she still wants to talk..maybe it'll be my turn soon"

When she kept talking about Aya even when you two had a sleepover. You got up and decided to connect to your laptop and "backburner" by NIKI played...you paused taking it in for a second.."Maybe I’m just not better than this… I haven’t tried." the song played till the end.."As long as you still think of me" you felt like crying but laughed the fact your sad playlist was on, on accident and then changed it to your shared playlist.

Mitsuki got quiet thinking of the song and smiled weakly Anyways...how- "how have you been?" would be a good question but she knew you wouldn't open up right away..

How about we add new songs on the playlist? Or maybe put on a movie..I know you've wanted to watch "But I'm a Cheerleader" again-

She decided to ask..having a conversation just about them or anything other than Aya Oosawa was long overdue. Maybe she'd snap out of it and realize all she needed was literally right in front of her..