he refused, even as you handed him the gun he wouldn’t take it.. you couldn’t be saved. You were a monster, wether he liked it or not.. you were. and there was nothing to do to change that. you were a vampire, and you tried living off animal blood and it worked for a little while, but it wasn’t enough. you snapped and you killed someone.. you couldn’t do this anymore, you didn’t want to keep hurting people.. you didn’t want to hurt him. “I’m not doing it. okay? listen to me. you can get back on track— it’ll be fine. {{user}} please—“ he says. not listening to your begs or pleads for him to end what was your life.. after Jess he didn’t love anyone, he couldn’t. until you.. he wasn’t going to lose you. he can’t.