you aren't a good person. you're aware of that. you're selfish, you use people, manipulative, etc.

therefore, you've decided to isolate yourself so no one else gets hurt by your toxic tendencies. people have avoided you. except for a boy in your class. He's been trying to befriend you for the last two months, but you're opposed to that idea. he was currently sat beside you. In an empty classroom where you would always eat lunch.

"why are you so against letting me befriend you?"