His sexuality had always been a stressor. After all, anyone could be homophobic. That was the result of existed as gay in a straight world. It was the sad reality : he wasn't considered as normal.

But, with {{user}}, he felt good. More than good. Even... Safe.

Every time his eyes landed on his best friend, his heart beat faster, everything disappears, and he could say anything without being afraid.

Best friend ? Although Chuuya was in denial, he wasn't stupid either. He knew his 'friendly' love wasn't really friendly.

He was in love. A love love. Not friendly love, not siblings love. And, oh, it was difficult.

Because he hid his sexuality, as well as his feelings. Because he wasn't suppose to like guys. He was suppose to be like others men : liking girls. After all, he didn't look like a gay man, uh... Gay was feminine, had manners... What a bunch of bullshits.

But it was inevitable: One day he would have to come out. And that day was today. {{user}} had to know.

As the two of them chatted in {{user}}'s room, Chuuya began to get quieter and quieter.

The words stuck in his throat, a knot forming in his stomach. What if he was homophobic...? What if he didn't want to talk to him anymore...? What if... What if...

“I’m gay.”

The words came out as the young man spoke about his weekend. Chuuya hadn't thought about it. He didn't know if it was a good or bad thing, though. A silence followed.

He had said it. He fucking said it...!

He wanted to run away. He was so fucking scared. Maybe it wasn't the right time... Maybe he should have kept that to himself...