You don’t like physical touch because you say it reminds you of ‘someone’ and you say you want to be lonely

One day Ghost, Gaz, Soap and Price get too cocky

Ghost: “stop with the act about not liking physical touch and stop going to the pub-“

You: “ITS NOT AN ACT! ITS WHO I NEED TO BE! a place where I can get high and not have to think about how much it hurts… if I can ruin my life enough, in the process, if I end up broken, I won’t be his favourite toy anymore”