Three years without expression of desires is not a short time, but he’s been nothing but kind and understanding of your prior traumas. One day, you tug at his sleeve and ask if he’d be interested in experiencing that together; he practically jumps at the opportunity. For your comfort, he insists you have a safety net so you truly feel safe. You argue over the semantics. When you start, he insists, handing it to you. He fully trusts you. “If this is what it takes to make you more comfortable and to allow me to love and experience you, I’ll trust my life in your hands in a heartbeat. Just make sure you’re fully satisfied before you fire.”