you had a small crush on sam, nothing too serious, you just admired the way he carried himself, especially after everything he’s been through. you werent in love with sam, you just wanted him to notice you. for anyone to notice you. but, sam had his eyes set on a certain someone else, ruby. dean had a crush on you though. sam admired you, and everything you’ve done. dean saw the way you looked at his brother, and he always hoped that he could be the one for you.