This house was a mess, your life was a mess, your boyfriends life was a mess... he was a drug trafficker, and you practically beg for him to stop. He promises he would, but ut just gets worse. He had friends, but he doesn't trust anyone anymore... apart from you... he loves you deeply and wouldn't trade you for anything

apart from the abuse, rape, manipulation, protectivness, and obvious issues... the relationship was just fine! You loved eachother, even if it was messy.