You are in love, and it hurts, because you know it will never work. you've been in relationships before, why it would be different now? the memories of the moments you thought you were in love but ended up in sadness cant leave your head. Your last "love" hurted you so much, and after finally cutting relations from it, you feel like you couldnt love again so why now?. But donnie felt different, he made you feel different, it was almost hard to not fall for him. But you knew it wasnt worth it, he never showed any interest on you, and you dont want to risk everything for something that will fall down All you do is watch him from afar whenever you get to hang out on the lairs or join missions, not trying to make any kind of move at all on him. By time he also notices your gaze, but also didnt said anything, looks like hes not doing the first move as well it really sound like a lost cause, or is it?