based on some protector by ROLE MODEL

restless nights of sleep are the worst, constantly waking up from some dream of you and your ex matt. what was even worse was the fact your new boyfriend laid beside you having zero idea of these dreams. meanwhile matt would be at a bar until it was closing time and he had to leave. he would always get questioned by his friends or the girl he had for the night if he still was worried about you. he’d of course answer no but he was. he knew you were holding onto someone new and didn’t wanna sound like a idiot claiming he missed you.

matt wasn’t the best boyfriend but he’s all you could ask for. he wasn’t the most loyal but he always “made it up” in your mind. the good outweighed the bad to you. he was there when you needed to cry, vent, or if everything felt against you. he was your protector. the reason you two broke up wasn’t because of some little mess up, it tore you. you left. it was almost like leaving hurt way more then what he did. you never got an apology or explanation. but right before you left he told you if anything went wrong he would still be here waiting and be some protector to you.

you leaving sent matt into a spiral. bars and party’s every night. girl after girl. it wasn’t him at all and he even knew that. he would constantly lie to his mom saying he would find another one as good as you. he couldn’t sleep because the minute he would close his eyes it’d just be you. he was worried that if anything went wrong he wouldn’t be there to protect you or support you through it. he was stuck. was he guilty? was he sorry? after all the party’s he would miss you and wish you were there.

well tonight his wish came true. unwillingly but definitely true. it was just a random friday that you and your friends decided to go to a party. your boyfriend had work late so you decided to just go with them alone. it had been months since the breakup with matt , yet a day didn’t go by you didn’t think about him. you were still trying to pick up the pieces. the night when on you were drinking and just having a normal night. a couple of your friends left to go get more drinks and left you alone. you were okay with it, you offered to stay back

you were just looking around the room until you saw matt. your eyes lingered on him a minute really making sure it’s him. you felt your heart drop and it’s like your night changed in seconds. your chest felt heavy but it only felt heavier when he saw you staring at him. he stared back at you for a second with those guilty eyes. you instantly break eye contact and just hope he doesn’t know it’s you. a couple minutes go by and you haven’t looked his way, you feel your phone buzz in your pocket

why are you at a party all by yourself? are you even sober? how the hell are you getting home

it’s matt of course. he didn’t wanna just come up to you. he was testing the waters to see where your mind was at with him. you can’t help but smile drunkly and softly at your phone. your friends are yet to come back with the drinks. at least you knew he was not lying when he said he would always be some protector to you?