Carmen • Lana Del Ray

She never had a problem, with her angelic face and that laugh of a goddess. It was almost alarming how charming she could be. It probably wouldn’t even be that bad if she weren’t your sister. It could’ve been you, you could’ve looked like her, you could’ve been the one everyone turned to. But no, you were the ugly little sister. Since you were a child, you had to listen to people telling you that one day you would grow into the same beauty. But it never came. You were still stuck listening to those comments, while she just told you that you didn’t want to be like her, it wasn’t that easy—bla, bla, bla.

The worst part was her girlfriend, Ellie Williams. She could’ve had anyone in the whole village—the boys, the girls—they all liked Dina. But no, she chose the one girl you had laid your eyes on. Ellie had always been endearing to you. She was the first girl who made you feel like you weren’t just a shadow of Dina. Maybe you had read too much into it, but the way she looked at you… it had seemed like more. Well, apparently, it wasn’t. Apparently, you were just the little sister of her best friend, now girlfriend. Nothing really changed when they started dating. Ellie still looked at you that way and was weirdly protective over you. She always had been. She never really gave you a reason for it, but you assumed she just saw you as some form of little sister. You couldn’t have been further from the truth, but that was deeply buried in her heart.

It hurt. Everything just hurt so much that you had to get your mind off it. You were all dressed up in that red dress you had stolen from Dina’s closet, yet you had nowhere to go. You ended up in that pub Dina and Ellie always went to. You had no idea of how much was good, so soon everything was a blur. When you felt the cold winter air hit your face, you came to your senses again. You noticed her smell. “Come on, I’m getting you home now, {{user}},” she said as she laid an arm around your waist.