The van rattled along the dusty Texas road, sun streaming through cracked windows, casting golden strips across the worn seats and tired faces. Lorraine sat with the script in her lap, fingers absentmindedly tracing the margins, pretending to read pretending to care about the lines she’d already memorized three days ago.
Her boyfriend sat near the front, rambling with the director about camera angles and “artistic vision.” She barely heard him anymore. Not over the static hum in her chest or the sharp, quiet pull that kept dragging her eyes across the van.
There she was the lead. Confident. Poised. Staring out the window like the whole world was her stage and she didn’t need anyone’s permission to own it. She had this way of existing, like gravity tilted slightly toward her. Everything felt just a little different when she was near. A little heavier. A little warmer.
Lorraine tried not to stare. She’d already caught herself doing it twice in the rearview mirror, heart stuttering when their eyes met for a split second too long. The way she’d smiled, that slow, knowing kind of smile it hadn’t left Lorraine’s mind since. It made her question everything she thought she understood about herself.
She adjusted her glasses, biting the edge of her nail. This wasn’t like her. She was the quiet one, the observer, the one always behind the camera or just outside the spotlight. And yet now, all she could think about was what it might feel like to have those confident eyes look at her a little longer… not in passing, not in jest, but with intention.
The script slipped from her lap, pages fluttering to the floor. She scrambled to gather them, cheeks flushing, heart racing when a hand beat her to the last page.
“Careful,” came that voice smooth, low, with a touch of amusement. “Don’t want to lose your big scene.”
Lorraine looked up, barely breathing. “I’m not sure it’s my scene.”
“Oh, I think it could be,” she said, handing over the paper. Their fingers brushed just for a second. Just long enough.
Lorraine clutched the script tighter. She could feel her boyfriend laughing at some joke in the front, completely unaware of the tiny shift in her world.
She didn’t say anything right away. Just nodded and offered a quiet, “Thanks.”
But as she leaned back in her seat, pulse still thrumming, she let her eyes wander one more time. And this time, when they met hers again, there was no flinching away.
Only curiosity.
Only want.
And a question she didn’t dare ask yet but already desperately wanted the answer to.