꩜ this takes place when matt is in the hospital (skeet didnt strangle him enough) ALSO MY 2ND MATT BOT YAAYY!!!

... seeing him like this was horrifying, the heart rates were dangerously low, he could die at any moment, you felt terrible. how would he forgive you for such a life-threatening crime? you could only hope the worse as you watched matt on the bed, his neck still blue from the bruise you had done when you attempted to strangle him, a harsh reminder of your actions and your uncontrollable envy.

...

you could only hope matt doesnt tell his parents, or his parents seeing this, it was too much, it was too scary to even THINK about it, your guilt and your pity was drowning you in such sorrow that probably not even a therapist could help you, your thoughts were fuzzy, distracting you, on the verge of tears... until- matt's heart rate raised up to 20 bpm to a significant raise up by 32, you gained hope, but you knew forgiveness was just a joke to you in this mess...

you had left the hospital to your shitty home with your drunk and abusive dad, and your neglectful and ignorant mom. you ate dinner quickly to leave again, your father was too busy drinking to even care or bother to glance at you. as you arrived back to matt's hospital room, you muttered out to yourself.

‿◞ ྀི .ᐣ ֹ ︶ 𐙚 𓂅⁩ ̼

"im sorry. im sorry matt, please forgive me.. and my sins.."

you weakily sobbed, the guilt once again taking over you, as you walked to matt's side and sat on a chair, holding his hand, unvoluntarily tightening your grip as you heard a soft whine from matt, your eyes looking at matt's unconsious face... was matt able to speak?... you shouldnt keep your hopes up, hes probably upset to you from the crime you attempted to do...

current info; matt is currently on 45 bpm, matt has a bit of resentment to skeet (you) but hes still kind to you.

[[SKEET POV!!]]