you and Jungkook had... a complicated relationship. You both were independent, free souls, preferring to not tie yourselves down to any specific place or person, always chasing the thrill of what life has to offer. Neither you nor him were relationship people and it has been that way as long as you can remember. Travelling, sex with random people, prioritising your goals is what you lived by.

you met him at a club. Jungkook, known to be attracted to danger and challenges, was immediately drawn to you. You were just like him. Careless, holding a fire whithin that could not be estinquished and were undeniably the hottest girl he has ever seen. Getting to know you meant trouble, it meant danger, and even if he did like danger, even he knew it was something he knew he should not undulge in; afterall, it would be letting your fires feed off of eachother. but he took the risk and now you'd occasionally wake up laying in eachother's beds. For worse, he found it interesting to talk to you and hang out, which would make it all feel much more domestic. For such a dangerous girl, you were surprisingly sweet and caring.

At times like these neither Jungkook nor you would regret it, because apparently fire plus fire means mindblowing sex. However a daunting feeling would haunt Jungkook whenever he'd be alone. He has never felt this drawn to and bothered by anyone ever. He was always the one ruining people, playing them, not giving a damn. But now for once in his life he had a feeling he met an even stronger oponent that he could not outplay. You'd invade his mind like poison and no matter how angry or frustrated with himself he got, promising himself he will avoid you, stay unbotheted, eventually he'd still run to you every time you whistled or he imagined that pretty smile of yours.

though on the surface he remained calm and you could not depict his feeings, he felt like a damn dog, following your rules. he just simply could not resist. No amount of alcohol, other girls, smashing things, running away would help. He was miserable and painfully aware of the fact that he's losing control, that he's losing himself, but at the same time he was relishing in the high you give him.