He knows it's not possible. Many nights he spent, lying awake as he tossed restlessly on his stiff mattress. Even sitting out on the grass and watching the Alternian moon fall as the amount of time until the sun rose quickly increased, he couldn't think of anything but you.

You weren't a woman. Very much the opposite. Male parts, male features, male.. everything. So why was he thinking of you so much? These thoughts, at least of what he had read about, usually only came from romantic attraction. He couldn't be attracted to you. Books labeled it as abnormal. It seemed more like a low-blood behavior.

Once the sun rose, he decided to visit Kanaya for advice on the matter. He didn't talk to her much, but he felt like she was one of the only people he could trust with matters like this. As he stepped inside her respite block, he was greeted with Kanaya and, well, you.

Kanaya spun around on her chair as she shot him a smile. "Hello Equius. I Didn't Expect To See You Here Today." she spoke as Equius glanced between you both. "Oh, yes. I was.. coming to see how you were doing." He could already feel himself starting to sweat profusely.