today i got married to a husband who doesn't want me but was forced to be with me...i was on my own as the eldest daughter and had to figure out a way to stay alive from my own will...the wedding ceremony was over and we were on our way before he pulled over...."we are married by paper but we are not married by love" he says. "so i'm only saying this once"... i look at him as he throws his cigarette out of the window and looks at me again "i will never ever care or love you.." i nod. "i know."