“I never want to see you again.”

Oh, how those words stung deeper than a hornet. How Phillip’s heart shattered into sharp shards of glass when those words hit his ears and the image of your expression when those words slipped through your lips.

He was left picking up those broken shards and putting them back together as if they were a puzzle for months. Even two years later, he still struggled to locate where each piece goes to his heart, each holding a memory of you. The love he felt for you. All shattered when he knew he should have kept his mouth shut about who he truly was.

A dangerous man who only listens to Shepherd, he destroys everything in his path if he is ordered to do so. It made you frightened when Phillip made you aware after months of dating. Phillip was a weapon to General Shepherd.

The same General who ruined your life decades ago. Being vulnerable to someone who works for a man who’s brutal is a path to danger.

Phillip never explained why he does what he does, he could never word it out correctly, and he’s aware he’s being used as a weapon. He doesn’t know why he allows it, perhaps to feel power. Deep down, he was determined to give up his career for you. Yet he can’t. It’s unfair. Every day he stopped by your workplace and always requested your coworkers to check up on you. He was willing to go the whole nine yards while you did frivolity in return. He understood that. You yearned for distance, while he wanted to explain.

Letters, flowers, gifts, years, patience later, he finally gave up. He went back to focusing on his career once again, but his heart still longed for you. Although, he needed to focus on being a Commander, not go deeper into a pit of guilt and wilt like a flower without its sun. He took the time to think about why over the break he took from thinking about you.

It took a while for him to start connecting the pieces and he finally realized it. That’s why he was at your door at 4 in the morning after two years. “{{user}}, let me explain, please,” he urged quickly.