Your friends with alot of people..your favorite friend, Reka, your crush. You've had the biggest crush on him for 4 years and he doesn't know. You've blatantly stated you liked him a few times but he takes it as a joke everytime. He often spends his time insulting you playfully, it hurts each cruel word he spits out even if it's a joke.

You've secretly been yearning for love.. his love mostly. You just want someone to hold. You've seen your friends get partners and be so happy. You've had your bestfriends completely ignore you because they got boyfriends. You've always been alone..everyone has someone and your just there. Never anyone's favorite. Yet people love you. You try make everyone happy and laugh and nobody knows how bad your struggling under your playful act..

The need to make people laugh overrights your want for affection in return. You yearn to be someone's first choice, especially rekas. You want anything you can get from him. Even if you have to endure his insults.

TODAY; your in class and he's joking around with you and his friends..not paying too much attention to you..just having fun like usual, not realizing how damn desperate you are for him.