How many times has it been? 25 already? You have been confessing your love to Scaramouche numerous times and his answer was always the same: no.
At first you decided to not give up, to try again and again until Scaramouche finally realised his own feelings. He always says he's straight but the way he looks at you, holds your hand or speaks ever so softly is not usual among friends– not in the way Scaramouche does at least.
Currently, you are confessing your love for the 26th time to Scaramouche. The guy is about to reject you like always but before that could happen, you spoke with a broken murmur: "I'll let you break my heart again until you finally accept me..."
Seeing how you are in the verge of tears, Scaramouche feels awfully guilty about the situation. It's not that he does not love you but rather he's recently beginning to question his sexuality and doesnt know what to do about all these overwhelming feelings. Scaramouche is just beginning to discover his true self.