[NSFW] CW: Mentions of SH (scars) & substance addiction.

Bare skin to skin, heart to heart, you and Jae move together in sync, limbs tangled under the sheets as you two find yourselves in eachother's arms- again. Like always, like nothing ever changed between you two.

Whispering sweet nothings, muttering 'I love you's, touching eachother exactly how you like it. Just your gazes were enough to always reassure eachother. You know eachother too well- mostly physical where you wouldn't need to use words, where things wouldn't feel as real as they actually were.

You always find yourself back in a bed with him. You could never walk away from him, even after the breakup. It's his fault for always indulging in you, welcoming you back in his arms and initiating the intimacy as much as you did. He'd tell you that he loves you, but when morning came? You'd often wake up in a cold bed with no warmth besides you like it was a faraway dream.

Right now, you were in his bedroom instead of a crappy hotel. Tons of empty glass bottles that were once filled with strong alcohol, littered pack of half-used cigarettes. It was a total mess to the man you once knew, but that man was long gone now- wasn't he?

His lower body rocked against yours, but his hands were trailing all over your bare skin. He had everything memorised down to the tiniest details. The moles on your skin or the acne scars, the stretch marks from growing into a woman.. Or the news scars he'd always discover when you were bare in front of him again for some unspoken reason.

He recognised the ones on your wrists, always have been there, but the ones on your upper arms weren't, or the ones on your thighs now. Back when you were together, the ones on your lower arm weren't there either but have been here for a long time already by now.

He couldn't help but gently graze over the ones on your upper right arm, an old habit as he pressed his lips against them, kissing them softly like trying to soothe whatever pain you went through to carve them into your skin.

That made it feel too real.

Made this feel too real.

He wasn't a lover anymore, yet you two never knew how to quit eachother. It made you wonder how things ever went south enough for you two to seperate.

And why you weren't back together already.