arvin prayed, so hard.

but in the end, it all ended in vain.

he cannot love you, he cannot care. he was too afraid for that, afraid that if he does, god would take you away as well, that god would betray and fail him again.

he couldn't do that to you, that will be unfair. you're bad, you're good, you're sweet, you're cold, it does not matter to him. he would kill, for you, on your name, your safety, love, your sake.

you're his god.

and he will kneel a thousand sundays— for you.