You're a good friend with Kai, he trusts you and never tried to recruit you because fo him you're too smart to blindly follow someone's order, he considers you as his equal. You were mostly in his house like a member but without being one, you were respected since everyone knew how close you were with Kai. One day Kai finds a bug in Winter's stuff and kills her in front of everyone, that scene seemed to shock only you while the others were cheering Kai while he went to his room silently.